i've nothing to say here.

i can't believe that my livejournal still exists.




so it's May.
i have a girlfriend.
i got a silver for my IPPT.
my band has tons of new songs and we're eager to show them to the world.
life is good.




for now.

so i got to know a girl some time ago.
we contacted, chatted and we sort of clicked.
i thought that she's the one.

until a few days back.
a guy added her on a social website.
they met up that night and the guy fell for her.
the guy found out about me and her.
he asked her what we were.
she didn't answer.
when she told me about it, i asked her the same thing.
she didn't answer.

i asked her out for valentine's.
said she had work and had some shit to attend to after that.
seems legit.
okay, i said.
another day then.

so i made plans of my own (i didn't actually, cos i'm a loser like that.)
she was uncontactable for the whole day.
at close to midnight, she replied.
apologised that her phone died on her.
she told me she went out with that new guy.
he bought her flowers and a teddy bear.
they're boyfriend and girlfriend now.
but she doesn't love him yet.

i blew up.
i have no faith in humanity anymore.
i cannot trust anyone anymore.
i've been played with, lied to and ignored one too many times.

i am not giving any shit about the other gender anymore.
if i die single, so be it.

so there's this video circling around facebook about a guy meeting his long-distance sweetheart after 2 years of just communicating online.
it's sweet.

oh how depressing it is to realize that my life will never in a million years be a quarter as awesome as that dude's.

congratulations.

i am torn.
sign on as a firefighter?
play drums at pubs on certain nights?
or start a wedding photography company with a friend?

you know what R?
fuck it.
you've hurt me once and you're never gonna hurt me again.
this isn't 2010.
this is 2012.
i'm much smarter now.

you and your 2-day singlehood can go organise a party or something.



good day.